The Hard Way

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything, but here comes the next part of my 30 day challenge with a twist. This time I’m supposed to write about a lesson I’ve learned the hard way.

I think the lesson that I have had to learn the hard way that has had the biggest effect on me is the fact that you can’t always trust people. I’ve had to learn how to live with betrayal from people I thought were my friends.

I’ve had many friends that have disappointed me and made me feel like I don’t matter as much to them as they do to me. That is a given, but betrayal of another kind I don’t appreciate.

Disappointment in people is a given. People just don’t always act the way you wished they did.

But when people betray your trust it is not as easy to get over. I had one friend that I told many secrets and when she one day decided we were not friends anymore I guess she felt that the secrecy of a friend no longer counted. She told people who I fancied and other stuff too. While people finding out who you fancy may not be a big deal to me now, it was to a 15-year old me. It felt like the biggest betrayal there could ever have been.

This betrayal is one of the biggest reasons I am nowadays quite cautious about what I tell people about myself and my life. It is kind of sad, but I have learned to live with it as a part of my personality.

So, I guess that was one thing that I’ve had to learn the hard way.