My First Love

I haven’t had a first love yet in the traditional sense. I have not loved a person that is not a member of my family. I have had crushes but have not loved anyone. That is because I don’t believe you can love a person unless you know them. I’ve had crushes on classmates and celebrities, but I have not truly known these people. Therefore I have never had my first love in that sense.

However, I have loved many things in my life. I could say my first love was my first car or my first pet. I would probably say that it was my first pet, since I got her before I got my first car. And I do love her. So there, my first love is a cat.

She was born 9 years ago at my grandparents’ house. Her mom had just chosen to live with my grandparents. Seriously, my granddad had seen her around the yard several times and she had been keeping house in their woodshed and one evening my granddad decided that he would try and get her in to the house. She hasn’t left since. And I am glad for if she didn’t stay I would not have my baby.

Tintti had two sisters. They were born in February with the careful aiding of my granddad. That is one more thing that I cherish in Tintti, she is a precious connection to my granddad now that he is no longer with us. My cousin took the other two and Tintti would have been left for my grandparents so I talked my mom into taking her.

She is my precious thing. The first night she came with us, she hid under a cabinet and we looked her for hours. And finally she came out and walked onto my lap. It was love. And I still love her as much, if not more than I did that day. I’ve made precious memories with her and will make lots of more.

So there, my cat, Tintti is my first love.

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30 Facts About Me

  1. I’m the youngest of three children
  2. My siblings are 9 and 12 years older than me
  3. I’m a proud aunt of 2 children
  4. I love country music
  5. I love animals and nature
  6. I have a cat that’s named after one of my favorite cartoon characters
  7. I’m a closet romantic
  8. I watch a lot of crime shows
  9. My favorite colour is green, but not Christmas-green
  10. I read a lot of Crime- and Detective novels
  11. James Patterson and Agatha Christie are two of my favorite authors
  12. I actually wrote my BA thesis about an Agatha Christie translation
  13. I study English language and translation in University
  14. I love languages
  15. My birthday is in December
  16. One of my biggest dreams is to have an alpaca and sheep farm
  17. I am a nerd
  18. Tom Felton is one of my favorite actors
  19. I do a lot of crafts
  20. I am left-handed
  21. I wear a lot of plaid shirts
  22. I just recently became a god-mother
  23. I like bright colours
  24. I love accents, british, scottish, australian and many others..
  25. I would love to have a husky or a beagle
  26. I’m short
  27. I have a loud voice
  28. I play pokemon go
  29. I rarely go anywhere without music
  30. I watch a lot of anime

Something I Miss

I don’t know what I could say to this. I don’t miss much of anything. Most things that are worth missing, I try to keep close to me. My friends and family are always a phone call or a text message away. At the moment, I am staying with my parents for the summer, so it’s more like I would love to get away from them for a while. My kittycat is also here, so I don’t miss her like I usually do.

If I have to pick one thing, I would probably say that I miss my late grandparents. I only have one living grandparent, my grandma, alive, so I sometimes miss the others. There are many things I would be doing and experiencing with them if they were still here.

My granddad from my mother’s side loved crossword puzzles before he got alzheimer’s. That would probably be something I would share with him were he still alive. He also always bought me and my sister sweet peas and strawberries for our name days which are only about a week apart in the summer. It is a tradition that I sorely miss.

My grandma from my mother’s side was a craft-person. She was a seamstress and she was always knitting or crocheting something. This would be something we would probably share. I love all kinds of crafts and I feel like she could have taught me many things if she was still here. I miss all the missed opportunities of learning I could have had with her had she lived longer. But alas, she died when I was about 13 and had no particular interest in crafts yet.

My granddad from my father’s side was a working man. He was always doing something. He built the house he lived with my grandmother in before I was born. He was, and still is, my inspiration for doing my best. When he got sick, the thing that got to him the most was the fact that he could not do the things that he could before, like shoveling the snow during the winter or splitting firewood. We all could see how much it pained him not to be able to do those things. I miss the man who was always loving and did his best.

5 Blessings

The first blessing in my life would have to be my family. They love me unconditionally and understand me. I can be just the way I am and they don’t care. They still love and support me. My parents are great, even though my dad worries too much. I have been blessed with two great siblings, a big brother and a big sister. While my sister and I may not have always seen eye-to-eye, I know that we love each other. Plus our relationship has gotten better as we’ve gotten older.  I also have the greatest niece in the world and soon will have a new niece or a nephew to dote on.

The second blessing would have to be my friends. I have the best friends I could ask for. They understand my nerdiness and love me for it. I have been blessed enough to find a few friends in my hometown, but I also have a great group of friends in the town I study in. My uni friends are more the nerdy sort that love Harry Potter, Doctor Who and any such things whereas my hometown friends are the sort that have known me more or less my whole life and therefore know me almost inside-out. I feel blessed to have these two groups and intend to keep them if it kills me. 🙂

The third blessing in my life is probably my ability to do handcrafts. It gives me an outlet for my feelings and also a way to keep myself calm and occupied. It is a blessing I have inherited from both of my grandmothers. It is a way for me to give something special to friends and family.

The fourth one is my health. I have been lucky enough to stay relatively healthy my whole life. Except for several ear infections when I was small, 5 and a half years of retainers, and not very severe allergies, I have been quite healthy. Not all people are so lucky, so I feel quite blessed for my health.

The fifth and last one would be my ability to read. Not all people in the world can read and even though I live in a society that every person can read in, I know it is a privilege. Reading gives me an opportunity to lose myself in another world and forget my worries and unwind. I could not imagine my life if I didn’t know how to read, so I am quite happy that I can.

Without these blessings my life would not be the same. Nor would I be the person I am now, so I can say that I am truly blessed.

“We don’t stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.” – George Bernard Shaw

Today, as you can see, I will share some words of wisdom that speak to me with you guys.

These words speak to me because I love not to act my age. I do not understand why we should become boring just as soon as we are “adults”. I mean, I don’t even feel like I am an adult. I know I’m old enough to be considered an adult, but to me, being and adult is more connected to the stage you are in your life rather than how old you are.

I am an adult because of my age, but I am not an adult like my parents or even my siblings. I mean, my parents are of course adults, but even my siblings are more adult than me. My sister is married and expecting her first child and my brother has a nine year old daughter. These are things that, in my opinion make a person a REAL adult. I am in no hurry to have these things. I want to enjoy my youth and act like a child.

I love just enjoying my University years and doing stupid shit with my friends. I mean, I am not doing anything too stupid, just enjoying myself. So why shouldn’t I? I have more than enough time to be a boring adult. So I will be enjoying acting like a child and playing.

I want to keep myself young, so I will endeavor to be the cool aunt who plays with their nieces and nephews if they so want. I hope I will never be too old to enjoy playing anything. I mean, I will never enjoy playing Kimble, but nearly anything else I will play.

My Inspiration

This time I’m supposed to write about a person who inspires me. I could go with many people, but I think I’ll go with my big sister.

My sister is nine years older than me, so we did not have much in common when I was little. Although as I have gotten older, our relationship has grown better. Why does she inspire me?

She has faced so much difficulties in her life and she still keeps on going. I mean, there have been several things that have not gone her way and yet she still keeps on going. I hope I am as strong as she is. I love her for who she is and I would not change her for the world.

She has also chosen a profession that makes her happy. It might not always be the easiest job, but she loves it. It inspires me to find something I love as much as she does and I’d like to think that I’m on my way to that.

I hope that someday she will know just how much I appreciate and love her. She’s truly been an inspiration and will probably continue to be for the rest of my life.

You Always Wear Such Bright Clothes

And here I have once again broken a promise of writing once a week but I will try and be better. Here is a new entry to my 30 day challenge.

The second entry was to be to write about something that somebody said to me and I never forgot. This is something that my brother-in-law once said to me. At the time he was only my sister’s boyfriend. I had bought myself a “Svea”-hat and he said: “I am disappointed in you for buying such a teenager piece of clothes. You always wear such bright clothes and now you’ve given into the pressures of being a teenager.”

I did not see it as an insult. I chose to concentrate on the part where he was proud of me usually being brave enough to wear clothes that make me stick out in a crowd. I love colors and to this date I wear brightly colored clothes. And contrary to his belief, I did not buy the hat because it was popular among people my age at the time, I bought it because I liked the shape and texture of the hat.

I have since lost the hat, but these words always stayed with me.

 

10 Things That Make Me Happy

    1. My family

    I love my family. No matter how much I say I dislike them at the moment, I know they love me and I hope they love me. Their happiness makes me happy. Even just talking to them can brighten up my day. Just as well as it can also make my day worse. Sometimes I can’t stand them, but all the same, I love them and they make me really happy.

    2. My friends

    My friends, like my family can sometimes drive me absolutely mental. However, they are the people that also make me smile and laugh when I think I can’t. Without my friends I would be lonely and I am eternally thankful for meeting each and every one of them. They know I am obnoxious, loud and don’t care what other people think about me and yet they still tolerate me and my nerdy fangirling.

    3. Tintti (My cat)

    She’s the most precious little furball there ever was. She’s also my first pet, so she will always have a special place in my heart. She turns 9 this year and I have loved all my years with her and will love all the years I yet have with her. I may not have her with me where I live because I live in a student house that does not allow pets. Plus, she would NOT appreciate the 8+ hour train/bus ride it takes to get to my hometown from here. The distance makes the time I have with her whenever I visit my parents all the more precious.

    4. Knitting and Crocheting

    Like most people know, I love handcrafts, but especially knitting and crochet. There is always new things to learn and new patterns to try. Plus, whenever I give something I’ve made by my own hands to a friend or a family member, it fills me with joy and pride when they love whatever I have made. And it is the best way for me to be creative besides writing.

    5. Writing

    Just like handcrafts, writing is something I do to be creative. I love to write and whether it is a blog post, just for my own amusement or fanfiction, writing always gives me some piece of mind. It is a way for me to deal with my emotions and feelings. My writing usually reflects my state of mind when I’m writing. Or then I just have an inspiration that I am afraid I’ll lose if I don’t write it down somewhere. Other people’s feedback and comments on my writing always make me happy.

    6. Music

    Music is one of those things that reflects my mood. When I’m happy, I listen to happy music and when I’m sad I listen to sad music. When I am angry or frustrated at or because of something or someone I listen to what I like to call “örinämusaa”. Basically it is music that reflects my state of mind either by the melody or the lyrics, more often than not both. Bands such as Three Days Grace and Breaking Benjamin are some of my go-to’s when I’m in this sort of mood. However, music also has the ability to make me smile. Sometimes when I’m sad, I’ll listen to a song I love and I feel a lot better instantly.

    7. Nature

    I love nature. Some may say I’m a nature hippie and that might be true. While I have lived in a city my whole life, my grandparents lived, and my grandmother still lives, in the country side. Their home is right beside a river and a forest. When I was a child I always loved visiting my grandparents because I got to run around in nature. Nowadays walking in the forest right behind my grandmother’s house makes me feel connected not only to nature, but to my late grandfather. Being in nature calms me and I love the sights and sounds of a forest or running water. If I could, I would live somewhere surrounded by nature with as many animals as I could gather.

    8. Animals

    I love animals. No animal is too big or too scary to me. My friends find endless amount in the excitement I show when I talk about animals or even visit a zoo with countless animals. While I like people, I simply adore animals. They offer you companionship without the stress of having to be pleasant all the time. I guess that’s just the antisocial me talking but I prefer the company of animals to people. They don’t judge me and I don’t have to pretend to be something I am not to them.

    9. Binge-watching anime

    I love anime and binge watching is something I usually do with a dear friend of mine. We usually just sit and watch anime for hours and talk nonsense and knit or crochet. It’s awesome.

    10.Books

    I love books. I have so many and I can’t get enough. I am an avid reader and I try to read pretty much everything but I love Detective stories and Fantasy. Whenever I get my hands on a new book I just shiver with anticipation of the adventures the book will take me on.

My morals

My morals, I’m not quite sure where they come from. Sure, some of them come from my family. Like, you have to treat people right. And my work morals are from my parents too. Violence is not an option, when it comes to either people or animals..

But there are also many things that I haven’t learned from my family, because I don’t have their morals in some topics. Or perhaps I’ve learned from them to be more tolerable than them.

I believe that you shouldn’t judge a person too quickly or because of their appearance or stuff like that. If someone doesn’t look like every other person, that’s not a bad thing. If someone has different skin color from mine, that doesn’t mean we can’t be friends, or that they are less of a person than I am. The fact that someone is a gypsy, they’re not a thief. If someone is gay, lesbian, bi or transsexual, that doesn’t make them any less valuable or somehow disgusting. I try not to be prejudiced. That’s one of my morals I’ve learned to be better at than my family. I don’t judge people because of their race, religion, sexual orientation or any of that superficial stuff, but for the person they are. 

If people believe in different things than I do, I don’t hate them. I always try to understand their side of things, and why they might think differently from me. I don’t have to be friends with everybody, and I won’t be friends with people who’s opinions in the world conflict with mine too much, but I’ll still tolerate them and try to understand why they think so. 

However, the morals I value most of all in my list of morals, have to do with animals and nature. I think we humans have a moral responsibility to take care of the animals and plants around us. I’ve always cared more about animals than people. That’s because most of the time their suffering isn’t because of them, but because of us humans, and they can’t do anything about it. I hold the animals around us as(if not more) dear as humans. This is the most important moral of mine. If someone clashes too much with this, I will not like them. We will not be friends. I may not even tolerate a person who is too open about not caring about animals or the nature around us. 

I can tolerate someone having different religion, different race, different sexual orientation or stuff like that. But I WILL NOT tolerate a person who doesn’t give a rat’s ass about animals or the environment. That just shows what kinda person they are, and it’s not a very nice person, so why should I tolerate someone like that? 

 

That’s my morals.

What love is

I love a lot of things, my family, Tintti(my cat), other animals, nature, my friends, photographing, writing, a lot of stuff.

You can love pretty much anything, and the love is always different, depending on the object of the love. But some things are always the same.

In my opinion the things you love shape and define you just the same as the things you do. 

Your family is the base of your individuality. Whether you wanna be just like your family or wanna break free from the family ways. I know my family has shaped me, they’re all animal lovers like me, that’s the part where I wanna be like them because I love them. But then there are things, that even though I love them, I don’t wanna learn from them. I don’t wanna be as prejudiced as some of my family members. And even though not all of my family members see eye-to-eye with my views of the world, my wish to travel the world, live abroad and live my life protecting nature and making decisions that help the environment, I love them. The fact that they don’t always seem to believe in me makes me want to  prove myself to them. I wouldn’t wanna do that if I didn’t love them, their opinion wouldn’t matter to me if I didn’t. So my family shapes me.

I love photographing, because it gives me a way to show the world as I see it. It gives me a way to show other people the beauty of an animal, plant or a simple moment of life. I can show what matters to me in this world.

My love for animals and nature shapes my career wishes. I’d love to become a biologist, so I could help animals and other organisms and maybe make other people realize how important and beautiful they all are in their own way.

In my opinion, love is something that shapes us to be the people we are. No matter how much we try not to let them, the people and things we love, change us. When you love something, you can’t imagine your life without it. Like when you have a dear friend or a family member and for some reason you lose them, it leaves a hole in your life, but most of all, it leaves a hole in your heart. That’s what love is to me. Unconditional caring. You think you can’t live without the things you love. But sometimes you have to let them go, it hurts at first, but you learn to live without them with time. Pets and loved-ones die, but their memory stays forever in your memory. The hurt of losing something you love may never go away, but in time it lessens. 

That’s what I call love.

Things and people you don’t wanna let go, but sometimes have to. 

Things that make us who we are, things that shape us.

Passions, that we can share with the world.